Don't Be Sorry

There's so many different things I hear when I first meet people. The Lord has blessed me with the ability to hold myself in a way that people don't have the opportunity to feel sorry for me. But on occasion it does happen. There are so many thoughts and emotions that go through my mind when I hear someone say "I'm sorry you're in a wheelchair". Anger, frustration, bewilderment, self-pity and my absolute favorite, disbelief in myself. But almost ALWAYS I am reminded of who I am in Christ! My hands and legs don't work "properly" but that has not stopped me from achieving so many things! Even though I'll probably never be able to walk, I am so grateful for the abilities that I have been given. Like, crawling and being able to use my phone. These might seem like little things to most people but to me they're everything! I'm hoping one day I'll be able to dress myself. I'm hoping one day I'll be able to get in and out of my wheelchair from the car, my bed and the couch. If I want to achieve these goals I CANNOT wallow in the fact that I get around in a wheelchair! So, the next time you see someone in a wheelchair or with any kind of disability, please don't feel sorry for them. It's a daily struggle for me but this is what the Lord says about me: “but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:31‬ ‭ESV‬‬ 
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  1. AnonymousJuly 22, 2017 at 5:35 PM

    I love your bold and beautiful heart, Nissi!!! Thank you for stepping out and confronting a big, fat elephant that so many people avoid!!! God bless you!!!

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